“Let’s Talk”
Why do you follow me, with your eyes and your footsteps and your nerves?
Have I failed in teaching you not to fear a few moments of solitude?
I walk in the cracks between lighthearted acknowledgement and oppressed resignation.
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I follow you because you are me and I am you.
I am not afraid. I am transfixed by the patterns of your certainty.
I quiver with awareness of your lightness and your oppression.
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What do you wish for?
You teach me courage. I fear I am not enough.
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I wish for perfection. All the senses coalesced, an end to dissonance.
You teach me to live in the world. I fear chaos.
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Tell me something.
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I talk to you all the time.
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Do I read you wrongly?
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Only when you forget to use all your senses.
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I want to tell you something important.
Are you listening?
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I am always aware.
I don’t always want to be.
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Do you already know what I want to say?
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I don’t know. Haven’t we said enough?
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Radha and A.
autismduniya 
Oh my goodness, Radha. What to say??? This “imagined” dialogue is lyrical in its depth. I put the word in quote marks because not to do so would do you and A both a disservice. The dialogue is not imagined because it is rooted in the very real multimodal communication that you engage in together. So this dialogic poem is less an imagining than a plausible interpretation, plausible because you and A are both equally invested in fulfilling the communicative imperative, not just as speakers/signers but also as listeners/empathisers.
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Thank you! You always get to the heart of my intent. And in such a brilliantly analytical style too.
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